Holiday Healing

Growing up I was obsessed with the holidays. I always dreamed of one day making them perfect beyond my wildest dreams. 

Perfectionistic desires were hiding my true feelings at the time of the holidays though. The reality that I have familial trauma that needs more healing is a stark reality masked by shining lights. No one wants to really face this truth though, we all try to cover ours up. Or try and not face the reality that sometimes blood relatives are not the ones that will truly love us for who we are. 

The holidays are more than just about family though in my eyes. It’s about the smaller moments of precious gratitude, for the life you are living, and the people that are currently in it. Relationship titles and blood ties are not the only thing that can be honored. It’s wherever you find love, it’s wherever you find the most peace. 

This holiday season I am hoping for more healing. For more honoring of the relationships I do have in my life, and for the one I am cultivating with myself. I am learning to cultivate love and peace within myself. Thanksgiving brings up a lot for me, but with every passing year I am learning more and more of how to honor myself in the present more than anything else. One year it’ll be even easier. 

In the meantime my heart goes out to all of you who have the familial sores like I do. Know that I see you, I feel you, and I’m always here to listen to you too. 

May you find healing instead of hurting this holiday season. 

Cheers friends 🤍